I participated in life drawing session and as it seems to be, it’s always about drawing nudes. 12 euros for 3 hour people watching and soup! Yes, that was the deal. Seems like a good one and it was! Well let me tell you, artists seems to get really serious once the model is fully there, with all her tattoos, body hair, marks and moles, flesh, flesh and more flesh. In Berlin nudity is more common than any other place I have been, people sunbath and skinnytip while surrounded by strangers.
This model didn’t hesitate to take quite brave poses, short and long ones (3-10 minutes). So it happened several times that the most intimate parts where closer than one would expect to see under bright lamps, unless he or she is gynecologist. I found myself getting really serious to draw intimate parts, my neck pulled itself back and I think I looked really serious and I had a little shame to look at her. If you look experienced artist to draw, they mostly look at the subject and only third of the time their drawing. But once you have naked model siting front of you like Sharon Stone in Basic Instinct, and looking at you, it is kind of uncomfortable to look.
As all of this fully about her look, I try so hard to make her look good, as she was. Oh shame if she sees my drawing and she thinks she is not beautiful. I hid my drawings, what if someone sees and compares or thinks that I haven’t done good work. My reality drawings suck, I know, but I still go and challenge myself every now and then.
During the pause model wrapped herself into the bedsheet and hanged around with us. What should I say to her? I felt like some smalltalk would be appropriate.”You have a nice body!” was my first idea but oh come on, this is like the weirdest thing to say to someone. What should I say… Oh I hope she doesn’t want to see my drawings! I have to say something, it’s weird to eat soup next to each other and I have seen her more than she have seen herself I guess. And if I don’t say anything, then it looks like I am taking her just like an object, with who there is nothing to talk about. Ohh, overthinking my new best friend! Come on, I must say something! “It must be tiring to stay in one pose for so long.” I finally bursted out. Oh I was proud of myself, no double meaning, no weird comment or question. “It’s okay, sometimes it’s hours in one position, this is easy here!”She said.
Now it was way easier to draw her, I know at least something about her – she is professional. Hmm, I should act like one as well :). Fake it till you make it!